A Day in the Ground - Instrumental Guitar EP
After my first album was finished, I began the process of becoming and living up to my own "identity". What I mean by that is, I was now a "singer-songwriter" trying to promote myself as such. This process in itself is a battleground for me. That word... That scary, evil word... P R O M O T I O N. And even far worse... M A R K E T I N G. What am I a business major now? Everything within me wants fight against presenting myself, in any form, to the masses. But I try, and tentatively set my music on the table of the public forum, and hope it catches someone's eye, even though it is immediately buried by the day's top stories, cat videos, bills to be paid, etc... I get it. In the scope of each individual's life, it is hard to even come close to seeing with your peripherals, focusing only on what your OWN next stepping stone is, taking you eventually across the river, and on to dry land where joy, bliss, and contentment exist, and suffering does not. (This is a whole other topic in itself, but who's really keeping track?) Anyway, for a while I sort of gave up. I decided I was not cut out to be a solo musician. I am not bold, confident, or strong enough to combat these issues. I don't like admitting this, as this was a weak move... But honesty is what matters here, so who cares. I'm really just rambling anyway. So progress has been slow, as apathy set in I began to focus on other things. As I am writing about this experience I do recognize that it has been a necessary one.
So here is the conclusion that I've come to - it's really not about me. To stop creating music because nobody is listening... is a cowardly move and frankly, pretty selfish. I do not "deserve" to be listened to. The sole purpose of the music I create is to produce good and clean fruit to nourish others. But I do not *usually* get to see that happen, and so I cannot get hung up on waiting around for it.
Anyway, there is a whole bunch of music I've been writing since the release of "Impressions". Some of it will be on my next EP, which I have to say, I'm extremely excited for. The rest of it, I haven't been quite sure what to do with. I have a lot of instrumental guitar music that I really like, but wouldn't really fit on an "album". As I was listening through some of it, I realized it was a reflection of this time period in my life. The music sounds drawn back, ambient, and somewhat distant. Kind of like I've been feeling... So I've decided to compile all of these songs on a "mini album". The title I chose for this instrumental album is "A Day in the Ground". I am not going to charge anyone for the album, I want to put it out there completely free of cost. A lot of the time when I'm working, I like to have background music, but I don't like it to have words, since they can be distracting if I'm trying to focus on something. I figure there must be some others out there who feel the same way, so consider this my "background music" album. I tried to shy away from norms in these songs, some of the music is literally just me hitting record and playing whatever came first to my mind. I am a musician who thrives on improvisation: there is something magical about pulling melodies and moods out of your subconscious mind and putting them to music. Even without lyrics, these songs tell stories to me about what I was experiencing at the time that I recorded them.